With you, life is lovely

Lately, I've been pretty much occupied. Time hasn't been too generous. I've been extremely busy with school. It has been decided that I should start building an appropriate future for my little family.

I love my son Matthew and my boyfriend very much. They are my world. We will make it, we'll obtain that dream of ours; a happy cuddly family, living in a sweet little home. The place that we'll always look forward to return to at the end of our days. That only place that would help us seek comfort and joy. A home, sweet home... filled with positive emotions of warm laughters and love...

.. I' am going to chase this dream. I shall fly as high, and as wildly as needed. For this dream, for the future of my little family, I will.

7 Weeks PP

I haven't written for a while. The family is doing all right. Matthew is doing great. He's gaining weight, slowly... he's now about 7 lbs. I love him more and more each day. I'm still not getting good sleep, Matt still wakes up every 1.5-2 hrs day and night, eating around 2.5 oz. I guess I'm getting used to it, although I can't wait for him to sleep through the night.

I've been very emotional ever since giving birth to Matthew. I know it's not me, I assume it's due to my hormones trying to get back to normal really fast. My husband didn't seen to understand that it's not me, I bet he still doesn't... but we talked it through and decided to put the arguments a side, and it's working :) What's still really bothering me right now is, my weight... I'm about 137 right now and it seems so hard to lose, for some reason? I also really want to move out right now, rather then to live with the in laws in this cramped up house, sometimes they get on my nerves too, by telling me how to do this and that with the baby, and what not do do, blah blah. Sigh.

Well, Matthew is almost 2 months now, and I've never took him out other then to doctor appointments. If it doesn't rain or snow tomorrow, hopefully I can take him to the mall for some Santa pictures :)

Love...

My ♥ and Soul.

Welcome to the World Little Matthew

October 20, 2010
10:40 am
5lbs 5oz 18 1/2 inches

I went in for my growth scan ultrasound on 10/18 Monday morning, at approximately 9am. The baby was measuring small, about 3 weeks behind. Apparently my baby was diagnosed with IUGR.. for why I'm not so sure, they said possibly my placenta went bad, or something. So according to the doctor, it was safer that I had the baby early, as we can't control what may happen if I were to wait. That same day, I was admitted to the L&D floor to be induced. It was so sudden and shocking for both my husband and I... yet we were super excited.

I was admitted to the labor and delivery floor at around 11am. My labor lasted pretty long, much longer than I thought. Doctors had to put 3 pills in me to get me effaced the way they wanted. I was finally 3cm dilated the night of the 18th, that was when my contractions felt a little strong, but inconsistent. The next day, they finally put me on pitocin, which made my contractions super duper strong. When I finally hit 6cm dilated, I could no longer bear the pain, and so I asked for an epidural at around 9pm. The epidural lasted only about 5-6 hrs. Before asking for another shot, I tried to bear with the pain for just a bit longer. The anesthetist said the EPI alone wouldn't stop the pain for me, so they gave me something else in addition, I believe what they gave me was normally given to people whom get c-sections. Boy did it stop the pain! But then again, the contractions came right back a few hours later, however I was completely numb from waist down. At 10am on 10/20/2010 Wednesday, I was finally 10cm dilated. I was so excited. I was completely calm during the pushing phase, thanks to the epidural and whatever they had given me. I pushed for 25 minutes and finally little Matthew arrived, at 10:40 am being 5lbs 5 oz and 18 1/2 inches in length. We were so happy, nothing could ever describe how I felt that morning.

I had an amazing experience at the L&D floor at University of PA hospital. The nurses and doctors were so nice and generous. I couldn't have asked for more.

Full Term

37 weeks, my son is now considered full term. He's measuring small though, so I'm not sure if he, himself... is exactly full term just yet. I'm having a growth scan ultrasound this coming Monday and I can't wait to see how much he weigh. 3 more weeks til' my son is due, it's amazing, I so can't wait to meet him.

4 Weeks To Go !

BBC: "Your baby is still packing on the pounds — at the rate of about an ounce a day. He now weighs almost 6 pounds and is more than 18 1/2 inches long."

36 weeks, 9 months ! Wow. Next week he'd be full term, and in 4 weeks I'd be due to have him ! It's so exciting, I can't wait. I've gotten basically everything ready. I can't wait to meet my little fella'. The Dr is guessing that he's measuring small, due to my fundal height measurements being 3 weeks behind. There are other reasons as to why I may be measuring small, though. I'll find out during his growth scan on 10/18, I can't wait to see him again. I hope he's growing well.

Measuring Small

I went in for my 35th week check up today. Apparently, my son is measuring 3 weeks behind (rather than 2 weeks like all the other times), nor have I gained any weight this whole month. I'm scheduled for an ultrasound to check on his growth on OCT 18th. I'm pretty excited to see him again, yet I'm so very concerned about his growth. I hope all is well. The dr also checked me for group b strep, didn't get the results yet but at least I got that over with.

On another note, I met with a pediatrician about a month ago, I REALLY do not like the place nor the pediatrician herself. I felt totally rushed, the place looked so dark and gloomy. Not to mention, I had to pay a 45 dollars fee without being notified before hand, I do not trust the place. However, because I had to pay the fee, a part of me feel like I should give them a try... yet I feel like it isn't worth it. I WOULD REALLY just go to the Children's Hospital for my baby's check ups... but my boyfriend insist we should at least give them a chance... I'm not too sure, sigh.